Worst and best year...

I'm having the worst and best year in my life...
Everything is happening at once and everything at one time. Time seems to be flying by as it is June already.
I've been stopped in my tracks a few times in this time. I guess it's good because it's when your world stops that you realise where you are and you get some perspective on what is going on.
I had a discussion with one of my friends the other day, that made me realise I have no idea what I'm doing. I don't work hard , I love to chill because I have no focus, no passion. Where is my passion, what is my passion?....
This might be very sad but I was programmed to satisfy others needs and the problem is they abuse it. What do I want? I fisguring it out and when I have it you will not be able to stop me..

God works in misterious ways and I hope to be more often than not be stopped in my tracks to realise where am I going.